Its a new year, a new day, a new dawn. Indeed. But I am still waiting. I am good, even great! I am lonely, but I am not letting that consume me.
Lonely...not as being without companionship and company. I have that from all my wonderful friends. Nor is it that I am left without confidantes and comrades. I have that too. I am so blessed. I have people who hold my heart, help me nurture my dreams, people who will laugh and cry with me. But the kind of lonely I am, knows that something, better yet, knows someone is missing.
I am lonely for romantic intimacy. No I am not talking about sex or physical contact... although both would be nice (long pause). But I want so much more! I could get sex. You know that's not hard at all. But I don't want to be aroused physically while my soul remains untouched. I'm not looking for the warmth of one night, only to be left with the freedom of a single's independence. I don't want ecstasy without responsibility; nor an embrace without love's commitment. I don't want a fleeting satisfaction only to still be left singing in my sheets India Arie's ballad "I am ready for love."
I am ready for love.
Why are you hiding from me?
I quickly give my freedom to be held in your captivity.
I am ready for love, all of the joy and the pain.
And all the time that it takes,
just to stay in your good grace.
Lately I've been thinking you are not ready for me.
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity.
They say watch what your ask for, cause you might receive.
But if you ask me tomorrow I'll say the same thing. I am ready for Love...
Would you please lend me your ear. I promise I won't complain, I just need you to acknowledge I am here. If you give me half a chance I will prove this to you. I will be patience, kind, faithful and true to the man who loves me, the man who loves God, respects the spirit world and thinks with his heart.
I am ready for love. If you'll take me in your hands. I will learn what you teach and do the best that I can. I am ready for love, here with an offering of my poise, my eyes, this song, my mind, tell me what is enough to prove I am ready....for love.
When India preformed this at one of the award shows, she said, I am not singing this for any particular person, but to G-d, asking for love to bless her life. I hear her. I am ready. This is not a statement, but a prayer.
But yes, I am ready for the work. Ready for the journey. Ready for the privilege. Ready! Ready to give myself, share my world and enjoy a lifetime of getting to know one another. I am a romantic without a muse and I am ready for love.
I also want to be wanted. I want to be wanted for who I am, for my company, my wit and my presence. I want to be wanted...because my voice matters in the issues of his life. I want to be wanted because life is better with me along for the journey. I want to be wanted because I am physically, intellectually and emotionally sexy. I want to be wanted because my cooking and my presence makes his mouth water for more. I want someone who wants me, Godiva S. Sweet. I want the one who has been praying to G-d for me, as much as I for him, if not more and who is also ready.
Today my whisper is G-d please send my husband 'cause
I am ready for love
So I wait...
I have been waiting...
I will wait...
for the one God will send.
